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...and another one bites the dust
because i reject people due to fear of rejection
self-fulfilling prophecy or prediction of vindication?
is she leaving me? the hyper fixation
do i sense things and be prescient or is it just self-sabotaging distortion?


am i interpreting them wrong because i feel worthless?
or do i actually worth less?
even small changes in their behavior make me think they think im worthless
and trying to make them love me is a desperate act, love should be forceless
i vowed to myself i will never beg for others love again, so i didnt, it'd make me weak
it was better to betray others than to betray myself, even the thought of this gives me ick

i am not entitled to someone elses love
no love ever lasts forever
i know that, it's an useless endeavor
why it doesnt help me to know?
why do i feel sorrow
i saw it coming, i always thought "it can even end tomorrow"


why it still aches?
it doesnt only ache, its like an emotional earthquake