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oh, are you angry cause you didnt get love?
people betrayed you used to look in awe?
feeling unlovable and outsider, its the terror she draws,
she belonged to the nights like an owl, at least nobody judged her flaws
the person you'll become, you foresaw
but your hands were tied
and you learnt to be tight


it's now like an emotional winter
surely, i feel bitter


i was a lost person,
now i grew up and became conscious
and it made the anger worsen,
remembering how they lacked conscience
and i didnt get even a crumb of love when i most needed,
i killed myself in order to be loved and sadly i succeeded
but the love came when it was too late,
i was so angry: "why did it wait till this date"?
i thought


people that are born in happy family and secure, i admire,
not so soon i think my soul will expire
because of the feeling i've been feeling for decades: anger and sorrow,
i got killed by the rebel fire
i don't want to wake up tomorrow
from mood swings, i am tired,
but it's just the way my brain is wired
is it my fault the things i "chose"?
i would have behaved healthy if they taught me those
instead they betrayed me when they were meant to be close
i begged for everything
yet i got nothing

when you cant feel loved by your mother
you try to beg for it from one another
you learn to be a beggar at a very young age

i supressed rage inside
i was very angry for the things they didnt provide
will i try to be loved or will i declare war?
why the other children got it more
while my heart was in sore
because of never feeling loved before
and i dont know how to fight so i just ignore

power was the thing i desired
i just tossed around not knowing who to be
while my soul withered and my will to live has expired
now we dont know each other, me and me
i wonder what would i be if i grew soft
but it's desperate to think about "what if"s about what you lost


love for humans is like water and sun for flowers
you die if you get none
but not physical, you'll ask "why"?
because there is not only one form of being done

at least i tried