melt me away

die old friend
all this strength wont make your fragility disappear
you cant feel tender things anymore
replay the memories and mourn the past

something pure inside got disintegrated
i don't understand how i got this way
old friend didnt get anything but she waited
old friend, i didn't even eat an apple
i just napped on hour and minute hands
hoping i can stop the time and reach my ends

i used to cry for times like this
now i dont feel my heart and break his
i used to be happy for half of what i got
now they give me the world and i rot

all the love and success wont make the emptiness go away
i used to fight in times like this to find a way
"there's a will there's a way"
i found my way and used my will
now i look at my failed hands
and wait for end of the day

trying to connect fragments of my shattered soul
each time i use my hands i pray for myself to stay
doing everything to light the fire and make it stay
then i realized whatever i do it died long ago
when they blamed her for playing with her toys
locking her in a room
she froze there
she's still in that house