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tragic how inexperienced hearts create disasters
that they wanted to escape in the first place
they became the monster they once feared
because no love words were heard
at all
so they starved
and turned black
so is it their fault to be inexperienced anyways?
what can a heart spread if it's full of hate?
you can only vomit what you ate

whats already dead cannot die
people try to dye each other black and white
and judge as if they are pure
as if theres no other tones
not all evil people show you that they are evil
some people look good but are mentally medieval
they just turn it into a competition
its like a race who is better
all they do is projection
being right doesnt matter
what matters the most is intention
being right can be a tool
to make other people feel fool


beneath every rusty heart theres fear
they dont believe in compliments they hear
they think all words are dry


on every people theres a false mask
behind every mask theres a face that cries


rust in heart makes people paralyzed to pain
it gives you strength
but costs your humanity
its like an exchange, but it ends up being in debt
its not possible to compensate the emotions that you lack

and you just go numb
all of your attempts to be loved was vain
and you dont wanna try forever and be a dumb
but now youre the one that gets the blame,
for not fully confiding
but what you actually dont want is to taste the betrayal and pain,
so you dont wanna trust
the armor on you is a must
and you will always carry it
theres no gain in confiding
no one deserves it

maybe someday a sparkle of hope will rise
because you don't know how to live otherwise