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crying in the dark, no curtain is open
my cold heart filled with ice
original stranger than the frozen
no one is wise enough to understand it
or warm enough to melt it

in the gloom im drowning
no one understands how hard is healing
staying the same or staying sane?
either way there's no escape from this pain

my heart has amnesia
forgets all the love yet remembers the hate
its like my heart muscles have eternal anesthesia
it cant pump love, love cant get out of its gate

in me there is sorrow
thats my life, frozen as cold steel
my soul is pitch dark, better to conceal

mother judges, cold and unstable
father manipulates, cold and unavailable
now my heart, to love im unable
in my night theres no candle

“didnt get love, freezing inside
now grown, decided to be on the opposing side
to feel home she became home, became one with her pain
now she feels hollow, on her soul theres constant rain”

there's no easy way to live i realize
i dont belong here
all i want is to feel alive
but my future is not clear
i miss the love